Bonita's Mental Health Journal

THE SCARY BEGINNING This is not going to be easy. I'm used to having my wall to protect me, keeping my thoughts and feelings inside. That makes it easier to just manage each day, hour, minute more easily by hiding from myself, which is something that I simply cannot tolerate going forward. I'm on a mission to be the person I want to be and that I know is inside me. Of course, that's not to say that I haven't been genuine with others; it's just that I only allow them to get close enough to almost expose my insecurities and what I think are my awful secrets, and I stop things dead right there. Come close, but not too close. See a bit of me, but not too much. I show you only what I perceive as the "good parts" so you'll like me. That's as much as I can write at the moment. Embarking on this adventure is scary as hell, because I plan to be completely honest with myself and you, no holds barred. It might even take me a while to publish this. I